Just wanted to let anyone who actually reads my journal, that since I fell into a depressive rut, I've changed my journal.

I always fall into these.

Anyway, my new journal is: http://therainbowchibi.livejournal.com

I'll add you and you add me.

Thanks.

Well, last night I finished up my Store, finally. And today I'll just put up a few extras I haven't gotten to yet.

The reason why I've gotten this idea is mainly because I need money for school, but also because yesterday I got a letter from my bank saying I need $50 by 10 days time because I have an Overdraft charge that I didn't know I had. But, I really need the money for school, as my getting that job at RHF as well as my jobhunting isn't going very well so far. Also, I can't get any Financial Aid because my Dad makes good money. So I have no choice but to sell my stuff. Oh well...

So, here it is: http://www.freewebs.com/lucesitaforever/store.htm

If anyone wants to help, please comment or send me an email.

Thank you.

Now for some ramen...

P.S. - Things I want to accomplish:

* My fics
* Setting my life straight
* Those 3 classes I want for Fall '06 (Chicano Studies, Humanities 102, Personal Growth)
(Although why does Dad say no whenever I want to take 3 classes? Does he think I can't do it? He makes good money...)

Well, it seems I'll get a call today about that RHF Host job from Mary, I hope I hope I hope.

If I get rejected, I still have a chance at working at my school bookstore and working at Jlist.

Hopefully I can get that hosting job. I want it.

I'll be sending in my Jlist job application in the mail afterschool and I'll just dropoff the bookstore application there before I go home.

Yesterday I noticed two mailboxes in the actual front of my school. Now I don't HAVE to go all the way downtown just to mail in things. Can't believe I barely found them out after being here so long (seems long to me anyway...)

And I keep getting these pains in my left hand, plus the whole right side of me feels so sore for some reason. Just down to my neck, I can walk fine, but that side of my face and neck just HURTS! Ugh.

*Yawn*

Wish I had something better to do than just sit here. Might as well use the computer while I can.

This morning was terrible. Woke up a few minutes after 7. Mom felt sick and all that so I decided to go to the LRC as Mom told me I couldn't use my laptop for the whole day today. Luckily I got a ride today from Kitty and she got me there at 9:30-something. Not too bad. So just spent half the time working on my site and surfing FAC. A few minutes ago I got a call from Mom saying John Taylor (from the RHF Science Center) had called. So, I returned his call and gave him my cell number and am now waiting for his reply. I feel so very nervous, I'm all kinda jittery. This could be my big break or my worst downfall.

It all comes down to this one call.

Wires were crossed.

That was it...

But they'll get back to me.

*Wanted to get this up sooner, but chores always pull me down. Here's my 1st post, late. Written yesterday, a few minutes before 12AM hit. Ugh, I suck at doing things on time, dammit.*

I've been kinda dreading my first post on my new LJ as to the fact that I'm never at peace with myself.

Now, I am. :)

Today was a hot and busy day! I woke up at 9AM to the sound of loud banging. Turns out that our neighbor's Dad's building a separate room for his kid (?!), and that's why it's been so noisy here. *sigh* Anyway, my summer has been VERY rocky and very...50/50, as if I never know what to expect. Like getting friends on LJ and SA just by being myself. No longer do I have to pretend I'm Japanese. I just have to be who I am, no matter what anyone says about it. At times I've grown to hate my heritage, but now I've learned to...embrace it, in a way; as well as to defend it, as I've been the subject of many a racial slur. I think of my past, and I know I can never escape it, no matter how hard I try. But I can learn to make my life whole again.

Like today, around 12 (after watching some Young and the Restless with Mom ^.^), I decided to go to school and went to the bookstore to get an application. I plan to work there in the Fall if everything checks out. Then, about a few minutes ago I saw online that Jlist is hiring! So, I went on my brother's computer (push and shove, I get blamed for hitting him when I didn't!) and printed an application, I plan to send them both in soon.

Looks like everything's in order...so far. But, I have no money in the bank, and thanks to that pendeja cashier at the movies she charged EVERYTHING on my card, now I gotta see how much I owe, cuz I *know* I'll hafta pay an overdraft fee. >.<

Also, Mom recently raised my allowance from $10 to $15 (better than nothing anyway), so I get $15 every Sunday. So...

7/16/06 - Get $15 and pay my Gakuen Heaven Yaoi DVD ($12.26) -- $2/3 left (snack after?)

7/23/06 - Get $15 and pay my LupinxGoemon Doujinshi ($16.54) -- add a few leftover bucks (in case)

7/30 to 9/3 - SAVE UP FOR EXTRA CLASS, $90 (rough esti.) IN THE BANK


I feel that this’ll be a bit rough couple of weeks to wait through.

Oh, that and the fact that Dad’ll be home this Saturday. I’m happy that he’ll be home, we hardly get to see him, but how long he’ll stay home is anyone’s guess: a month, a week, or even a day?

Well, I made my own little website which I’ll hopefully be working on, and I’ll be selling a few things on there: copies of my entire CD collection (album by album and boxsets), magazines, stuff like that, so hopefully I can get things settled and set “straight”. But then it’d be cash only. No...cash AND money orders! That’s it! But only in the USA though. Just to be safe. Hopefully once I get my little shop up and running they’ll hopefully be *someone* out there who’ll buy from me. I need the money for school, and thing’s aren’t looking too well for me financially. *sigh*

Oh well. Time for me to go to bed hungry again. Mom won’t let me make ramen just because I went over my “logoff time” of 12AM. And, she has control over my laptop. I always have to bring it to her so she can hide it. I'm sick of the rules. I wish she wouldn't rule over me like she does. I want out of this rotten house NOW.

I WANT TO BE ON MY OWN!!!!

Oh, I made goals:

1. Get a job in 3 months

2. Get the hell out of this house by 9 months or less, depends on what happens.

Both goals start from THIS MONTH.

And I'm very worried about the first goal, cuz school starts September 5th. Damn!

The second one...meh...